The Stories Behind My Art!
For me, art isn't a conscious expression of emotion or a deliberate effort to articulate how I feel and what I think at the moment of creation. Instead, art is a product of the subconscious; therefore, any conscious effort sometimes diminishes its purity. In a way, such intervention can feel like a brutal assault on an artist's creation.
Since I've sometimes felt guilty of doing just that, to redeem my soul, I've decided to look back at my creations and explore what might have inspired them, alongside any conscious considerations that might have subtly altered their original message.
I want to be clear: I don't believe what I express now is exactly how I felt at the time of inception, because I cannot definitively know. Art, in its essence, is to be discovered even by its creator. So, I'm not trying to explain my art, and I certainly have no intention of projecting a definitive narrative onto it.
Instead, what I'm undertaking is a form of self-psychoanalysis. I feel compelled to revisit who I was at the time of each artwork's inception, to see myself in a different light and understand the thoughts and emotions that gave rise to their creation. Delving deep within myself is therapeutic. I believe these "therapy sessions" bring more of my unknowns, lurking in the dark, back into the light. Perhaps they will even usher me onto more exotic paths of my psyche I never knew existed.